When they told me I was blessed that the love of two had become one I only expected stretched flesh bigger clothes... no the clots that pass now you are gone. 2-5-97
My head is filled with due dates and pictures of you. How could I love you this much and end your life? You were part me part him... lump in my stomach to wonder by. How soon I gave up. How ready I was to throw in the towel. How empty I am. How pregnant with infinite sadness. 2-5-97
Sitting on the edge of the table sittin on the edge of life the biggest decision ever made the biggest mistake sometimes when we are poised that way with destiny looming waiting for answers there is nothing to say only papers to sign and white jars waiting filling up before my eyes with the life inside. 2-5-97
My bdad planted a seed abortion abortion might be what I need. I thought "What a bastard!" but the vomit twisted his image he became sainted hero a solution to my agony advice I took before I knew what agony was. 2-5-97
Now when it matters not I can shovel it in. I get thirsty when there's no one to tend. With nothing doing, growing inside I'm eaten alive. 2-11-97
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